My boyfriend and I have been together for four years now. “ Pushing people away when I feel they may reject me.” - Britian L. “ Being terrified of being alone, then pushing away everyone who cares about me because I feel unworthy of their friendship.” - Audra R. “Completely dissociating over minor issues, losing control and hurting myself… What really gets to me about this is that I genuinely love my life but even that won’t stop me from hurting myself in those moments.” - Maddy B. Half the time I wasn’t even being rejected, I just thought I was.” - Ceridwyn K. I overreact in response to it, and it just makes things worse for everyone involved. “The worst one is probably my inability to take rejection. Being Unable to Take Rejection or Criticism More often than not, this is with me being the dependent party, and I become very childlike (and then get upset when people infantilize me). I am often mistaken for much much younger than I actually am.” - Nate M. I find myself always wanting to relate to people on a swayed ground of power. Like I guess it’s happened so much to me in my life I always expect everyone to leave and honestly they usually do, but I feel like it’s probably because I assume they are going to.” - Summer S. Then I realize nothing was ever wrong.” - Emily W. I come up with this whole story in my head about what the said person could be thinking. If they talk to someone else I assume they want to be their friend, not mine. “ - Miranda D. If they give me a certain look, I feel that they hate me. If my friends have a neutral expression, I feel like they’re mad at me. When it’s happening, I almost can’t control it, and it feels logical, but afterwards, I am horrified and ashamed.” - Emily B. I have pushed away so many people, ended relationships and lost friends because of the way I react. When I am anxious and feel like I’m being ignored or abandoned, I will text someone repeatedly, shifting rapidly from anger to apathy to pleading for a response to remorse. “When I overshare and then I keep oversharing to try to get people to forget about oversharing the first time and fall into a cycle of thinking my friends don’t actually like to hang around me because I make things weird.” - Sarah P. “How I can just spill my guts to random people I’ve just met. Something is either right or wrong.” - Jennifer S. I’ve gotten better though and I’m proud of that.” - Bri S. I know if I really were a bad person, then I wouldn’t feel horrible about my ‘episodes,’ I wouldn’t care about how I’m affecting others. When I’m upset, I end up making myself look like a mean, angry, unkind person but that’s so far from the truth, although in the moment I believe I am horrible for acting that way. I look like a ‘crazy’ person.” - Carissa W. Fear of him or my friends being ‘mad at me’ when I’ve done nothing wrong. “ Asking my boyfriend every single day if he still loves me. If I don’t get the attention I need, I’ll act out or get emotional in order to receive it, which usually is accompanied by word vomit and dissociation.” - Bri R. “Needing constant attention, reassurance and validation in order to feel worthy and loved. Constantly Craving Reassurance and Validation Without further ado, here’s what our community shared with us: 1. But even though it’s natural to feel embarrassed sometimes, we want you to know there is no shame in struggling with BPD. Before we begin, we want to preface by saying that feelings of embarrassment are very real, and like all feelings, are completely valid.
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